I feel like I have been on a whole new level of what I have been aware of lately, but what I have been neglecting is my body.
Today I decided to listen to it, by staying in bed.
The ironic part is that I know I made the absolute best decision for my personal health, but at the same time I still feel guilty for not physically being at work today.
Why is that? Why am I deciding that my personal health isn't as important as everything else?
I mean my awareness of that decision is important, and at somepoint today I am going to try and tackle the root cause of it (story of my life recently really, uncovering what's going in the wonderful little brain/mind of mine).
Items I have learned today
Blimey: to express surprise, excitement or alarm
Happy as Larry: really happy? I think?
Scattergon: building something in a scattered/un-organised manner
Blimey and Happy as Larry are direct quotes from another one of my MBA professors - Neil. I attended an all day workshop last Saturday that was all about social entrepreneurialship. Now, in addition to my job, my action research proposal and an upcoming research paper, I will also be working with a team to develop and pitch a Social Enterprise Program that will aid the church street market/edgeware road community of London.
Am I crazy?
Probably.
It's ironic because in my early 20's I had FOMO (fear of missing out) of anything social. It was really hard for me to say no to going out, so I would literally be out every single night of the week (I am very sorry liver, please forgive me). Now a days? I have FOMO of missing out on something academically challenging. Who am I and what has happened to Maria?
So today, I am trying to make a point to rest. I will still work of course, and eventually do a bit more research for my action reseach proposal, but the most important thing that I need to do is take care of me.
I know this, and now I need to take action to actually do it.
Rest, breathe, reflect, repeat.
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